What the fuck am I doing with my life? I'm enrolled in a Univeristy taking Bio Sciences in hopes of one day becoming a doctor, do I even want to become a doctor? I'm so confused at a time where my parents are putting so much pressure on my to decide what exactly I want to do with my future and they won't settle for me working in a department store the rest of my life. What do I want to do? I want to sing in a band, that's the honest to god truth. I can't sing very well and I don't write particularily good song lyrics or have yet to even attempt to write a piece of music but that's all I've ever wantee to do, just be the lead singer of a band. Struggling to come to terms with the fact that I will never be the lead singer in a band due mostly to fear and laziness I'm desperately grasping for other things that I can do with the rest of my life.

It's so fucked because earlier this year when I started University I thought that there was nothing more that I wanted to do with my life than heal the sick. It would really be incredible to be a surgeon like those people on Trauma--Life in the ER and save people every night...and lose patients. I'm at this crossroads in my life where all I really know for sure is that I wouldn't have even gotten to this point, I wouldn't even be giving a second thought as to what I wanted to do with my life if I didn't meet the people I met in high school, and the only thing I know for sure is that I want to do something more with my life than work in the mall. I can't do that, I know I can't. So for now I'm going to go forward towards a BSc in Psychology and hopefully by the end of that four years I'll have decided exactly what direction I want my life to go in. I also have an incling to go into the retail business, but instead of working for someone I want to be the person that owns the funky clothing store with a piercing place in the back, blasting punk music in the front. It's scary to think that I finally have to make these decisions and have to seriously think about what the future will hold because I make my destiny.